The grass ain't always greener.

     I've had a hard first couple of days back at school since Fall Break. Seeing one of my best friends from home down at school has actually made me become a bit homesick, which is something that doesn't happen for me a lot. I can't believe I'm actually admitting the I miss Maine a lot; my parents, a few close friends, my mom's side of the family, the beach, my house... I can't stop thinking about these things. Thanksgiving break can't seem to get here soon enough.

One of the beaches in my hometown in the early Spring. 

     But at the same time, I remember all of the hurt and pain that accompanied my high school years, and that bad memories that I have of my town. I remember how amazing it felt when I first moved to North Carolina, how it truly seemed like a "fresh start." I remember all of the things that I love about the South: the amazing food (especially the fast-food options like Bojangles and Chick Fil A- need I say more?), the warmer weather, the friendliness of the people, how it's the norm to go to church every Sunday, the style...etc. Even small things like the fact that highways down here are toll-free. But still, I miss home.

     I've finally gotten to the point where I don't miss my former college much anymore, which I think is good. I still miss not seeing a few close friends from there everyday, but I've gotten over a lot of my doubt about leaving there. It's just that I'm still not very happy at my new school, either. I went from missing my old college to missing high school.... something I thought would NEVER happen.


     But what I'm trying to do is to be content in where I am now. That isn't an easy thing to do, but with the Lord's help I can do it. I realized that my time with God has been dwindling in recent weeks, and I'm trying my best to stop that. Reading devotions and bible verses every night before bed is back on, and I'm making it a top priority that I attend church every week. Last weekend I wasn't able to go on Sunday morning, so instead I took my friend Jules to a Saturday evening service. The great thing about being in the Bible Belt is that there's always a church that has a service to fit your needs!! Whatever day of the week and whatever time, you can usually be accomodated. :-)

     I'm trying to take things right now one day at a time. It's initition week for my sorority which means that I have Alpha Delta Pi stuff going on every night. It will be very fun, but also stressful and it means that I need to get better about doing my homework earlier in the day instead of postponing it until nighttime.

     And then there's the fact that I'm still single... but that's a whole other post that I will be writing soon. ;-) God is actually working on my heart a lot in that department, and that's been a huge blessing for me.


   
     Are any of you having a week of mixed emotions?


     xoxo Miss ALK